but seriously no one will ever love me. im either "too perfect" or you'd "rather be friends" or you "don't see the spark" in our relationship, it's all the same excuse. how can I be so damn perfect if no one can stay with me.
"What are you afraid of?" he asked exasperated. "I'm willing to do anything for you, but you still continue to push me away." "I'm afraid of my past, of all the pain that I've been through. Of all the broken promises and empty remarks of love.
Philophobia: fear of emotional attachment; fear of being in, or falling in love. There is no real love to be found in toxic relationships, and the only emotional attachment you will form will be an unhealthy one.